Dying.

Sometimes i over think and imagine everything to be too wonderful.

Its amazing how things happen unplanned. As much as i dislike it whenever you text me because it makes me start hoping for it all over again, i feel that rush of adrenaline at the same time. I don't understand why i react this way, but just by seeing your name when my phone lights up, it kind of make my day.

That day i talked about how i wanted to put him away from my life, i went to school the next day without talking about him. I was feeling a little empty and moody but everything was alright. When i was half way through the day without any climax, i received his sms. As usual, I died. 

I realise its kind of impossible to not think about it at all, even for just a day. Is this how it feels to love someone? Erm... HAHA. That word... Love?.. As a 17 year old, who am i to say anything? 

I miss you dude. Really really really do. 

Kinda tired of talking about him all the time, but it makes me happy. Yes, even when it's one sided. The day i'm gonna get over it is perhaps the day  he falls in love with someone else. 

Where got time to love? Hahah. Having this love hate relationship with school. I love it when i get really busy with projects and all because it kind of prevents me from thinking but on the other hand, i hate it because i can't cope. Everything is coming at one go. Projects and tests and then projects again and tests and the cycle repeats. It seems never ending and i'm on the verge of giving up.

Photo IG just ended not long and here i am at dance practice chionging my homework and blogging. Anyways, i can't wait to head back to Woodlands Ring on the 20th. Seeing my form teacher all serves as a motivation for me to not give up. Alright, shall head back to my work. Take care all!