Yesterday was awesome. Phantom of the Opera is a concert i will never forget. I really really respect the Phantom. He let Christine go although he really wants her. And i guess thats love. Really super touched. And i'm really thankful to Joelle for the dinner and the presents.
Went airport to study with BFF today. Airport.. Judging us right. HAHAHA. Maybe its me. I'm judging myself. Go airport to study. Whuttt.... Hahaha! But according to BFF, the airport is very versatile. So... The long bus ride and sad songs really make me happy. HAHAH. Irony! But doesn't matter la. Hahaha.
Kinda in a confused mode for a few days already. I'm so lost. I've never felt like this before. Like, never. Why is this so complicated? Is like two person who feels the same for each other cannot be together. I know the reason why you don't want to give it a try. And i guess that is why i don't know what to feel now. I can't describe the kind of frustration i'm feeling. So confused, so fed up, so messed up. I hate the fact that you are so good at pushing me away. I hate the fact that you can distance yourself so easily. I hate the fact that you are so good at not caring. And i'm just here, thinking, wondering, guessing. Talk to me. Even if you've said the wrong things. Tell me you said the wrong words and that perhaps you didn't feel the same. Tell me to get over it.
I don't like myself like that. I don't like the fact that whenever i let someone in i get hurt because they want to protect themselves. Its not their fault. Its mine. Because i let people in too easily. Why can't i learn?
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