Feeling kinda messed up today. Maybe its because i'm really tired. Oh, that reminds me of the dream last night. HAHAHA Which is so ridiculous, but i like cause i feel loved. In dream yes. HAHA. Okay back to topic. Yup, i'm messed up. Cause of work and test and everything.
Work today was terrible. I am terrible. I don't know why but i couldn't concentrate today. Is like a body over mind kind of thing. I made 2 cups of wrong tea and i have to pour them away. And i got scolding cause i kept forgetting the measurement. There's so much more but i can't remember cause currently my mind is blank. Like literally. I just feel like crying at work. I'm not trying to gain anybody's sympathy here. I just felt grievance cause i'm already quite stressed up about the upcoming test later and i kept on doing the wrong things and i accidentally cut my arm and is like everything is coming at one go. Is just a tiny cut but at that point of time i just wanted to blow up.
Parents came to fetch me after work. I know right. HAHAHA. I can even walk home but they came to pick me up. When i saw them, the first thing i wanted to do was to hug them and feel their presence. I don't know if anybody ever felt that way before. Is like you almost died somewhere and then you realise you are still alive when you saw your family. I guess thats pretty much how i felt. We went for dinner.. Okay supper... Okay dinner for me and supper for them and i told them about everything that happened at work. Like how i wasted two cups of tea and how i caused the queue to get longer because of my slowness and blurness. I didn't realise i was actually holding it back until when i told my mum what happened, i started tearing up. I know all these might be nothing to people out there. But i'm just tired and i don't get why i have to do this anymore. I need money yes. Cause i'm using adult fare now and my mum didn't increase my allowance. But i can walk. Right? I can save the money for other things. Omg.
Okay omg. I don't know how to continue this post anymore cause my brain is officially dead. Oh but my supervisor is so nice he texted me and ask me how was work and if the colleagues are too much when they teach me. See. These are the reasons why i can't bring myself to quit. Whatever. Goodnight peeps. I'm officially... Okay. Whatever. Goodnight.
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