First day of work at Sharetea today. It was so tough. The POS system almost drive me crazy. 4 freaking pages of menu for me to memorise. I foresee myself dying but my mum say i will survive. HAHAH.
Received his sms again today. TEEHEE *Insert crazyhypersuperhappy face* But I lied that i was going to rest and ended the conversation because i didn't know how to continue. I was really kinda pissed w myself cause i really wanted to talk to him. But i feel like i'm trying too hard whenever i do because i'm always thinking of what to say and how to reply and what should i ask so that i can keep the conversation going. And that makes me feel so desperate and stupid. I really hate it when i doubt myself. I feel like a clown. I'm not desperate. I just like someone and is hoping that the guy that i like will maybe just feel a little something for me. But it never happens and i understand. This may sound stupid but, i wouldn't choose me either.
What am i suppose to say or do so that i can see this picture clearer? Somebody said this to me 'Is either you go all out this time or you stop wasting your time thinking about him.' And another 'YOLO bitch. Just do it. Who knows whats gonna happen the next second? Live your life to the fullest and do things that makes you happy. Seize the chance and make it happen.' Hais. And in my mind: Yeah man. YOLO. Go all out, seize the chance, make it happen.' My heart: Please think twice. Is the relationship more important or what you want? What if he..., what if we.... What if, what if, what if.
Dammit. I'm going mad. Hahaha. Thinking so much but i know at the end of the day my heart always wins. I've never done anything that my mind decides in my life before. So, suck it and continue watching from this cave of yours Angela Lim.
Hahah! Whatever. I just reread my post and i find it so funny. Heart over mind. Hahhaha. Alright, working tomorrow. Bye guys ^^
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