Snowball

Went session with Jonyes today! He really taught me quite a lot although i still suck at the freezes and also damn freaking gu niang to try out a lot of them. But i learnt how to do six-step, seven-step, the 3 types of top rock and shoulder freeze today!! ^^ Okay, shoulder freeze i haven't done it yet. But i know i will get it someday! ^^

Okay, Snowball. I have been missing Snowball a lot recently. Like really damn lot. To be very honest she had been like my lover at home. HAHA. Every night when i can't sleep, especially during my N level period when i had insomnia, she's always there! ^^ Staying by my side, sleeping on my back, listening to my crap. I know, some people will say its stupid. Its just a dog. But come on, its exactly the same like your children. The only difference is dogs can't talk. So to those who say that dogs are just animals and stuff, FUCK YOU.

I really kind of regret not speaking up that day. But so what if i did? The whole family agreed. What can i do about it? I really miss her so badly. Its like, missing your boyfriend when he's away and knowing that he'll never come back. Yes, its that bad.

That time when he left, Snowball was there. All the time. It may sound stupid to some people. But when everyone is asleep at night and i'm there all alone, she's the one whose awake accompanying me all night. But now... I hate myself for being vulnerable. Why can't i survive on my own? Why must i always get myself into shit that i know i might never get out of? Why do i trust people so easily? Why do i fall for sweet talkings? It really sucked being me.

I never really understand this quote until recently. But.. Yeah..
A dog is the only thing on Earth that loves you more than he loves himself.
-Josh Billings