Hmm.. Another night like this. Haha. Hate this feeling. I've been telling myself that i ended it that night when i told myself its the last time for me dwell over it. But somehow i just can't stop thinking. I know this kind of thing happened to me so many times, enough for me to get used to it already but i can't. Okay, not that i can't. But its so tough.
Well, this problem is pissing me off seriously. Why is it always me? The first guy that walked out without explaining why, then comes the second and now the third. I mean, they all made the same promise but surprisingly all of them broke it. I can't blame the first one. But blame myself for believing the same words over and over again.
He didn't exactly walk out of my life. But its so different now. I mean, yeah la. Usually when people meet someone whose better looking and stuff, they replace you with them. Whats more, we are not together which means theres no obligations and stuff like that. I just don't understand how can people change so fast. Its really scary. When you are trying so hard to tell yourself not to fall, the small little things that they do just make you fall so hard. Those sweet talks, cute conversations, tight hugs and everything, it just changes overnight.
Damn.. So sick of this. Sometimes i wish i'm prettier and all. And then i remember what my mum says. 人长得美或不美不重要，心美最重要。
Hehehe. Now i feel better. I just need a place to pour all my emotions and i'll be fine. Hahah. School is starting soon. I hope things like this don't happen again. Angela, please. Stop falling into shits like this. Be smarter. People can't tell you how to feel. You need to learn.
I mean, i can't blame the guys after all. Is not their fault that i'm hurt. Its me. If i'm smarter and knows how to protect myself, these kind of things probably won't happen. So, yeah. Grow up girl! ^^
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