Bimbo

Had a really long day today! Haha! And i'm really tired now. Shall not go into details about what i did. Basically, it was quite an epicful day with bimbo Charis. HAHAH!

I just made S'mores again! AHAHH! And its really getting better! Delivering them tomorrow and also return my GI uniform. Gonna be another long day ^^ Alright! Bye!

If you push a boy away.

Another quick post. I came across this picquote. It says:

If you push a boy away, he's not gonna come after you. He's going to find a girl that 'appreciates' him. If you act all damaged, he's going to find a 'normal' girl. If you move away from him, he isn't going to grab you, hug you tight and make you kiss him. He's going to think you're not into him. This isn't a movie. That stuff doesn't happen in real life. Learn how to deal with boy in reality before they find another girl who will.

Okay. I'm not going to act like i totally understand how a boy thinks or say that i don't agree with that. But what really happens before the first sentence? 'If you push a boy away'. There's always a reason why people do certain things. Girls don't act all damaged for no reason. If you treat a girl all nice and stuff, why will she push you away? Why must she act damaged? We act damaged cause we feel that way. If you stop caring, we're going to think that you're not into us anymore. Thats when we feel damaged. If you don't want your girl to act that way, then don't treat her hot and cold. Don't act like you're interested when you are not. Don't give us the wrong idea. Its so not fair. Learn how to treat your girl right before pushing the blame to us.

Okay, HEEEEES. Now i feel good. BYE!

Life.

I made s'mores today! ^^ I didn't use the exact ingredients cause i really can't find the graham crackers. But whatever it is, it turns out good! HEHEH. Can't believe its 5 already. Like, what the hell did i do today?

Had a really bad night last night. Flipping and turning, changing of directions, i just can't get to sleep. And somehow, i got up at 6:30. HAHA. Like amazing only. How is that possible right. I am Chao ren ^^ Kay fine. So, i got up at 6:30, wash up and went back to my bed. Hugging my bolster tight, staring at the ceiling thinking about life. Guess what? I fell asleep. HAHAHA.

Went to meet mum at 12. We talked about the incident that happened at Tampines. Whats there to say anyway? Although most of the time we say we understand how they feel, but do we? We don't. And we will never. Its heartbreaking. And i think i ought to feel blessed.

I made s'mores! HAHAH!! Its like, erm.. I don't really know how it should taste like. But it taste good! Just that i changed the ingredients! HAHAH!! Speaking of that im really hungry now.
Anyways, gonna go starbucks to chill with the sexy ladies tomorrow. NY cheesecake yay! ^^ And probably go and dance for awhile at RP at night.

Okay. I was about to publish my post just now and this is what happened. I heard a freaking loud sound. Idk how to freaking describe the sound but it just sounded like the glass broke. So I spent 30 minutes clearing the living room. LOL. Apparently my bro went to open the glass cabinet and the glass just fell. His friend cut his finger Omg. Totally reminds me of myself. HAHA! I'm so glad i cut myself that time! I helped him bandage his wound. YAY. HEHEH! Yeah. So i was clearing and clearing and i realise the glass made its way into my palm. HAHAHA!! OMG. THE WAY I SAID IT. ITS FUNNY!!!! HAHAHA! I mean i poked myself with the glass. HAHAH! Rubbish omg. Whatever. Glad my dad came home. HEHE. OKAY! BYE!! ^^

For the first time

I was so brave today. HAHA! I still can't believe i did that but i'm so glad i faced up to my problem and set myself free. I shall not reveal what i did. Its kind of embarassing. HAHA. Anyways, yup! Its the first time. TEEHEEE. Alright.

Considering today the first day after i quit my job, i don't think i did spend my time wisely. I woke up at 930, get prepared and went to find my mum for breakfast. At 1230, i went to cut my hair. Okay, trim. Although it looks shorter now, but my hair looks really healthy. HAHAH! YAY. Thereafter, i went popular to get colouring book. HAHAH! Yeah its funny. I laugh at myself and my mum laugh at me. But its alright. I really love to colour. Whatever. Hahah. And i came home to do house chores, spent about 2 hours clearing out all my drawers. Yeah, thats how messy it is.

I have no idea what im gonna do tomorrow. But guess imma do some spring cleaning since CNY is round the corner. Speaking of which, i'm really so excited to wear my new year clothings. HAHA. It sounds really stupid but im serious. Dresses for all 3 days. How awesome is that. just 13 more days! ^^

Alright, gonna take a break. Goodnight. ^^

Don't you remember

Gonna post a quick one before i head out! I don't know why but i'm really addicted to Adele's songs these 2 days. HAHA! Here's the one. This song makes me feel so much.

Its funny how someone that you've met for such a small period of time can make you feel so much. Or maybe its just me. HAHA! As usual, too emotional, too dependent and too.. Me. HAHAHA! Okay okay. Gotta run. See some babies! HAHA! Shall post again tonight! ^^ BYE!

Family.

Decided to be myself today! ^^ This is actually my true self! Full of exclamation marks, CAPS, poor command of English and... you shall see. HAHAH!

Woke up at 12 today. 12! Omg. Actually i woke up at 7. Was kind of pissed. I didn't set alarm neither did anybody wake me up. I just got up at 7. So i went back to sleep and woke up at 12. HAHA.
Went Tamp for the Tzu Chi event with fam. Actually more like we go there and visit friends and relatives that were on shift rather than going to support the event. AHAH! Anyways, went granny's afterwards to have our dinner. Had a mini gathering! ^^ At around 9, dad decided to bring us for supper. HAHAHA! Imagine that, having dinner at 6, laze around till 9 and go on to have supper. And whats for supper? CRAB. HAHAH!

Okay here comes the fun part. We were all waiting for sis to finish her food. I don't know who started it. But few years back, there's this incident whereby my mum took my panadol. She didn't know she's allergy to that. Guess what happened? Her face swell! She really looked like a balloon! So she asked 'Why didn't anyone thought of using a needle and poke my face? Maybe then it'll heal immediately.' And my dad started making the balloon lao hong sound. HAHAHAH!!!! ITS FREAKING FUNNY! This is the first incident.

Heres the second 1. After having a good laugh, i got bored. So i started singing Adele's song, all the way until we got up the car. My sister told me to on Adele's Someone like you. I told her that i didn't have it in my playlist. So she on hers and all of us started singing our own songs. Like super loudly! AHHAHA! Its crazy i'm serious. HAHA!

Alright, whatever it is, i had a great day! Its 3:48am now. I should probably head to bed. Goodnight! ^^

Gelateria Italia HAHA

Today is my last day at work. Although its just 3 months, i'm still filled with mixed emotions. Its weird. I can't explain it either. But to be honest a lot did happen. Its like another chapter of my life. I've met new people, made some really good friends, gone to some really nice places that i've never been to and ate some good food which i never knew exist. Sounds pathetic. HAHA. But its true. I'm a really suaku person.

Feeling kinda empty right now. Like, what am i gonna do? When i'm working, i spend most of my time working. Now that i've quit, how am i gonna spend my time? Do research? Stay at home? Do house chores? Go shopping? What? Really hate this feeling i'm having now. Friends are busy with school and work. And me.... How can anybody be as free as me? Can't believe i'm laughing at myself. I wonder how many people out there wants to be like me. Carefree and can just sleep through the entire day yet i'm asking for so much. Hmm.. Whats wrong with me.

One of the reason why i hate being so free is probably because i think a lot. Maybe too much. I can spend my whole entire day thinking about things that are beyond my control. The saying 'Let nature take its own course' is obviously not for me. This is something that i got to change as well. Stop making up stories in my head and be realistic. Maybe then i can save myself from a lot of heartaches.

I'm still not sure of what to do. But i'm tired now. Like mentally and physically. So, bye!
Oh btw, what a title. LOL

Falling and falling and falling

I just realise recently that i fall for people too easily. This thing had been ongoing for months. No, years. To be exact, 2 years. Its like a cycle. I fall, i got hurt, after awhile, i fall again. I really don't understand. Until today after i had a long talk with mum during lunch.

I was really bothered today. Feeling fucked up and all, wondering why can't i get myself out of this mess once and for all. So i told my mum what happened. This is the problem:

I can't seem to trust females (except a few). Okay. I wonder if thats weird. But as a female i can't even trust myself some times. I don't know if its in the character or what. But from my experience, most of the time when i open up to them, even when i tell them not to tell anyone else, after a few days you'll find that everybody knows your little secret. Its scary. Like.. Is this a female competition or what? You sabotouch people and try to portray yourself as a super nice person? The scarier thing is that i'm like that too. I can't really keep secrets. So i can't blame anyone. My point is when i tell my personal stuff to guys, usually when they say they'll keep it as a secret, they really will. And thats the problem!

I try to convince myself that i'm not the only girl who feels better around guys. In a way that i don't have to worry about so much when i speak. I can just be myself and say whatever that I want. So since 2 years ago, i've met a few guys that i thought i could trust entirely. But somehow, they always leave me whenever i started trusting. I use to not understand whats wrong with me. Whats the problem? Why am i always the one that falls into such shit? But i realise today that its my problem. Whenever they care, I take it personally and eventually, shit happens! I start to fall for it. And when i fall, i start caring. And when i care, maybe they fall too. But after awhile, they realise this is not what they want. So they get themselves out of that shit. And then me....... 

In short, Just because they care, doesn't mean they like you.

I need to start keeping low profile. This is the one thing i wanna see in myself. Glue my mouth together so i won't start blurting my problems to everybody else. For my ignorance, I'm sorry to everyone that i've ever hurt or sabotouched. It won't happen again. 

Pardon my language errors and the lack of vocabs.

New year, new life.

My new life was suppose to start 24 days ago. But somehow, it only started today. Being 17 this year, i really need to be more discipline. After all, i've chose a route that's different from all my other classmates. New year, new life. New goals, new role. Suck it up Angela Lim. 

So, i started blogging again. I don't really care what others think. I do whats beneficial for myself. Im not sure if i was digging a grave for myself when i chose Mass Comm. After all, my command of English is really not that high. I really hope after posting 20 entries i will see some improvements in my language. HAHAHA. 

Okay. Here i go.

I quit my job. I can't get over the fact that i actually did it. After all, there's so many reasons for me to stay but because of that few reasons, i chose to quit. I don't know if i'll ever regret this decision. But i know right now, this is what i want. I need a break. A long one. Long enough for me to sort out my thoughts and get ready for the upcoming war. Poly war. HAHAHA.

My boss is nice enough though. He told me to hold on to my uniform and if im ready for work, i can just send in my schedule. So right now, i shall just enjoy my life before i regret it. 

Having a date with mum tomorrow. Time to turn innnnnnn! ^^ 

Bopi i'll keep this blog going. Goodnight.