Overwhelmed.

I hate taking naps. Cause i wake up feeling so cranky and grumpy like as if people owe me millions of dollars. But i still took a nap today cause i was over thinking.

I woke up this morning feeling sick and tired of what i've been feeling since last night. And i told myself that i need to have a new start, again. Thats when i have decided to go and have a hair cut. HAHA. Everytime i wanna start fresh, i go and cut my hair. I guess i might become bald one day. Hahah. 

I don't know how long will i take to get over this. I'm so sick of feeling empty and weird and moody and emo. That's not me. I thought i was over it until i saw things that are related to him. I know this has nothing to do with anybody. Its just me that i can't help it but think of him so much even though i know that he don't do the same. Its me and my wishful thinking thats killing myself inside. 

How long is this going to take? Its the second day of holiday and i'm overwhelm by negative feelings. I wanna cry like a small girl. Not because the person i like don't feel the same for me but because i feel so useless that after such a long time, i'm still not able to get out of this feeling. Why can't i understand that its not possible? How long more will i need? 

Its Myself day tomorrow. Gonna go for a morning jog and head out to take some awesome photos. 

I might not be feeling awesome or good now. But one thing that we are all sure of is that i will survive. Right? Hahaha. Bye guys.