Life

It has been quite some time since i logged into blogger. But guess i just these thoughts need to be expressed. Been feeling and thinking quite a lot today. Life is so fragile. Isn't it?

I don't understand. We are reminded time after time to cherish the people around us when they are still alive, but these words never really get into us do they? Only when things really happened, that is when we truly understand the meaning of "cherish". 

At times as we are getting on with our busy lives, we often forget that time will never turn back and the people around us are constantly growing old. We forget that the world don't revolve around us and only us. Without those who are there to support us even before we were born, how can you be who you are today? Yet some are blinded by the material things that even Love can't make them see. It is painful to see how the ones that we love dearly are the ones who let us down. 

It is sad that moments become memories. But being alive, this is a cycle that we will never get to change, right? 

TGIT, TGIF

Had a long day. Nope, long week. Hahaha. Feeling pretty.... Tired i guess. Plus that small quarrel just now, it just make my day more tiring than it already is.

He don't understand. I'm not the kind of people who hates. And i seldom dislike. Maybe sometimes i don't agree with the way certain people do certain things, but it doesn't mean that i dislike you. Because i know people have different personalities and opinion. But this is different. Trust me, when i say it is, it really is. I dislike this guy. Sometimes i wish there are people who really truly understands me. As my close kin, you knew that i don't hate and i don't really distant myself from people. But why can't you just try to accept the fact that i can't like and accept this person?
Everything happens for a reason, but knowing the reason is not necessary all the time. Just give me a break. Because i really think i deserve to live my life and of course to live it the way i want it to be.

Bad times aside, today marks the end of my PFP journey. Like, after a year, FINALLY. HEHEHEH! I'm so happy i swear. This one year in RP had been pretty interesting. The different people i have met, the things i have done and everything. I am really thankful to everyone who have made an impact in my life. You all know i love you ;)

Another bright note, its Friday tomorrow! Hehehehe and i get to see mua boyfriend ^^
Goodnight everyone.

Genuinely Happy

It has been a good one and a half months. Well, I've been so busy lately i can't even breathe. To think i actually still have time to sit here and blog about my life.

Here i go.
First of all, i'm graduating PFP in less than a months time. I'm scared, of course. Because i'm not ready to say goodbye. I will never be ready. I love this bunch too much to let them go, honestly. What am i gonna do after we split into our different paths? All these memories that we have created together as a class for this one year, are we gonna just leave it? Is it gonna be just another 'its just a part of life'? No. I hate goodbyes. I hate it so much. But this is something i can't control. I don't know whats gonna happen after 1st of April. But one thing i'm sure of, i will always be here. If anyone needs my stupidity. HAHAHA

Secondly, I'm in love. Hahaha well, i have always been. But this time its different. Because after such a long period of infatuation, i finally have the chance. Oh yes, we got together. I have no idea what to say or how to actually express this amount of happiness.

I guess I've never really been in love. I mean, yeah i have been in relationships before but, well it feels different. Maybe its because i'm finally turning 18 and everything is starting to feel real. Friends, family, priorities, feelings. And bout feelings, i am happy. Like, genuinely happy.

I don't know if i can really make you happy like how you made me but i will do my best. I am thankful for everything that you have done for me. I know having you to step out of what you had before and accept this is tough, but for giving me this chance, i promise i won't ever hurt you. And all i hope for is for you to never give up on me even after seeing my flaws. 
Lets do this together. 

Tons of shit to be done. But i guess i'm gonna turn in cause this drowsiness is so drowsy?  HAHAHA Bye guys!

Sick girl, busy week

Its been 3 days man. 3 freaking days and i'm still as sick. I've been stucking tissue up my nose so much that the skin around my nose is peeling off a little and when i cleanse my face just now it hurts. It feels like i got sun burnt. And while i'm typing this, there's another one stuck up. You get what i mean? HAHAHA Its especially irritating when one side of the nose is block and the other just keeps running like water tap. Darn this. Yeah, and days like this i wonder if i'm dying soon. HAHAHA.

Really feel like visiting a doctor tomorrow and just give my MC. But i just realise that my graded assignment is due tomorrow which means i die die have to attend school because if its late by just one min i will be down graded by one grade. And that is obviously unnecessary because i took so much effort to complete that piece of work on the first week of hols. Not just about the assignment. I have a field trip to Chinatown after school tomorrow. Oh my.

And then i was thinking maybe i can see a doctor after the trip tomorrow and i remembered i have Math on both Thursday and Friday. HAHA. TADA. And then its Saturday. Saturday... Did i just remind myself that there's an interview this coming Sat. OHGOD. Okay shall not think so far for now.

I'm just praying that tomorrow when i wake up i will at least feel a little better. Or else i will have to wear a mask everywhere i go. Eeee. HAHAHA. Should really rest now. Bye peeps!

Bad day, not a bad life.

Been sick the whole day today. Flu, cough, headache and felt light headed a few times. Hahaha. Its really pretty bad. But well, doesn't mean that you're sick you can't cook. So i cooked pasta Hehe

Nights like this, suck. Sitting on my bed, feeling physically drain, thinking about the only thing that has the power to screw me every single time. It has only been close to a week but it feels like it has been forever. As much as i hated to admit, how he didn't bother talking to me still affects me a little. And at the same time, my 'disappearance', obviously didn't affect him at all. As childish as it sounds, sometimes part of me really still wish he cares. 

I hate how i take things so seriously all the time because i always end up being the one who have to clear that pile of shit when people leave. And honestly i'm tired of doing what i've always been doing. At the same time i can't bring myself to do the same to people because i know exactly how they are going to feel if people stop caring or start walking away from their life. 

While i'm bullshitting right now, my eyelids are becoming heavier. HAHA. Shall head to bed now. Goodnight babies ;) 

TGIF, TGIS

Skipped PE today because i woke up late. HAHAH. Don't judge me please, i didn't expect that to happen either. Chances are my alarm did ring but i'm too tired to hear anything. So i woke up at 8:15 and since i'm late i got to walk to school instead of taking my dad's car. When i was on my way, i accidentally walked into a guy. Without looking up, i apologised and wanted to walk away. What he did next was really unexpected. He got really angry, held up his hand and wanted to hit me. Can you imagine my face? I was literally like OMG. Lesson learnt, never use phone while walking. I am so thankful i wasn't being slapped or anything like that.

Was really excited about swee choon with classmates today but skipped it instead because my mum complained about how pack and tired i am these few days. Came home straight after school and took a 3 hours nap, hoping it will as least pay back to the last few nights but woke up to a headache.

Going for a shoot date with cuz and his friend tomorrow. I can't wait! Hehehe. At least thats something that i can do without feeling stress. Seriously wishing there are more nice places where we can shoot because just by thinking where to go is killing more than half my brain cells already. Plus the fact that.. You know, my brain. HAHAHA.

I went to countdown to the day of my birthday just now and there's still 215 days to go. By then, i would have completed my year 0 and be in year 1 already. Can't really think about what's gonna happen because i am really not prepared. And to be honest i may be a little scared to step into year 1. But i know i will survive this. I can do this! Hehehe. Alright, have a good sleep and good day ahead! ;)

Shots