New life to me

Had a super long night. Went town with mum in the morning and then class bbq at pasir ris park after. And it is the first time i actually stayed out for the night.

Yesterday, i made a decision to move on. I know i had been saying that forever. But its different this time. Well it really did feel different for once. And so i declared my new life 2 days before the real one comes. HAHA. I know right. #ShitthatAngelasaysanddoes

It was a drink drank drunk night at the bbq. And of course i regretted drinking that much. Not too much, but never had so much in my life. And i kind of realise that my mindset about getting high and being not sober will make me happy is not quite right. I know its childish and shit. But well, we all experience to learn right. Don't judge. HAHAH

It doesn't matter how much you drink and how drunk you get. Because when you wake up the next day, its still a brand new day and you still got to face it. Yourself.
Last night was indeed yolo. And once is enough.

Because at the end of the day, the only thing we wish for is to have brought joy and laughter in the person's life. 

25th of December

Merry Christmas babies! 

Well, Christmas has always been my favourite festival since everywhere i go i hear Christmas songs see pretty lights ^^

Doesn't matter what day it is. When there are thoughts to be sorted out, it needs to be.

Took me long enough to see things through. Hurt me once, shame on you. Hurt me twice, shame on me. And at this rate of hurting i get, i should probably dig a hole hide in there and never come out. 

Its sad that things are happening this way. Sometimes I choose to believe that whatever that is happening is just in my head. Those thoughts, those feelings and everything. But I know, if it wasn’t for your words, I wouldn’t have held on for so long. A new year is starting very soon and I don’t want to be the same old me clinging onto guys anymore.

The only person who remembers to hug me every time before we part.

All those things that I thought didn’t matter, they do. I thought I could watch you live your life the way you do but still continue to remain where we are but I can’t. Watching you not giving a shit it kills me a little more every single time. No matter what I’ve said before, part of me is as selfish and I still want us to be together. But I know we will never be, for whatever reasons.

Doesn’t really matter anymore, does it? How I feel, how we are, what are we.

Whatever it is, It’s the 25^th of December. Merry Christmas! ^^